So, My birthday is in about a week now, and I have been thinking about what I want all of you to give me. Now, don't get huffy, this is saving you from having to be creative and find something to give me that I have not already received in the last 29 years. It won't cost you any money, maybe just a few minutes of thought, maybe hours, or maybe no time at all. Are you curious? Are you ready?
A WARNING: Just by finding out,
doesn't make you committed, just makes you aware of what I want. Are your ready? Here it is.
FORGIVENESS
Okay, that may sound a little corny or weird to some, but it is all I really want. You have no idea how many heart aches I have caused by my "Innocent tongue," or heart aches I have suffered for lack of communication because someone won't tell me what it is I have done so that I can fix it. Yes, I know this is a selfish gift. It is my birthday, and I want the world, but am only asking for forgiveness. I know to some I have hurt deeply, this may mean giving me the world, but just think of how much lighter you will feel with the burden gone, and I really am asking with a sincere heart.
Take your time, think about it as long as you need to. Who doesn't like late birthday presents? You think your birthday is over, and WHAM there is something on your doorstep, or WHAM there is something in your mailbox. It makes your day. And this GIFT will make my year!
Some will think this post is specifically for them, and Yes, I do have certain people in mind, but all in all I really wish to know I have a clean slate with everyone. I am going to work really hard to keep it clean. But something I am also trying to give myself this year, is acceptance. I am who I am. I CAN change things, but I need to accept the things that are an intricate part of me that I can't change. AND learn to like them. My "innocent tongue" is one of those things. It needs to be brideled, but not smoothered. It can be used for good. I also have to realize I can not always help offending those who are waiting to be offended. I am TRYING really hard to let others be human, meaning make mistakes, do things the way they do them, and be who they are going to be. I am also trying to let myself be human. I can only change me, I can't change anyone else...but i can ask for a birthday gift of Forgiveness.
So when you are ready, IF you are willing, please leave me a PRESENT in my comment box, or if it is too private, shoot me an e-mail. THANK YOU ahead of time.