I watched "My Sister's Keeper." Man am I ever so glad I did not see it in the theater. Let me tell you there were some major water works going on at my house. I had to go and give all of my sleeping children very tight hugs, and thank my Father in Heaven I have them...that they are all healthy...that they love one another...that they have survived my mothering...and so on and so forth. It made me wonder with all the bad things that could happen to them in this world, should I really think that my family should be exempt from ALL of them? and Yes, that is what I hope for.
I have so often thought about one of my children leaving me too early in this life in a horrible accident or kidnapping....I don't want that trial. I have thought of having one of them getting cancer, or some other horrific disease...I don't want that trial. Other things too, like drugs, alcohol, pornography, homosexuality (yes I said it), turning away from the gospel of Christ...I do not want these trials. Even the seemingly little things like lack of friends for my kids, or even bad friends...I know it is silly but I don't want those trials. But with knowing what the world is like, knowing that we are here to have trials so we can learn, am I really naive in thinking I will be able to skip out on all or even any of them?
I find I am really enjoying being a mother right now, my kids are in hard but fun stages. Josie is just barely getting the walking thing down. She can tell you NO! She gives amazingly tight and wonderful hugs around the neck. She loves playing a baby style of hide and go seek with me. Deeken is hitting the terrible twos late. He loves his little sister, but enjoys pushing her down when he thinks no one is looking. He is impish and funny. He can talk back very well and doesn't like time outs at all. Micah is beautiful. She amazes me sometimes how beautiful she is. I catch myself just looking at her and staring, like I remember my mom doing when I was little. She says she doesn't have any friends at school...that no one likes her, well, except Quinton(thank you Q!) It breaks my heart. I want to shield her from all the hurt that I know is still coming from friends and relationships of all kinds, but I know that wouldn't be right. She is strong and amazing, and I know she will do amazing things. Noah is becoming quite the young man. He went and shoveled our neighbors drive this afternoon just cause he wanted to. He has always been a kind hearted soul in his wants to serve. I love that about him. I think he is doing better with friends and learning to control his emotions. I really am proud of him. I don't think it would be easy on any kid to change schools 3 times in 3 years. I am sure that has effected him even more than I know.
I LOVE MY KIDS SOOOO MUCH!
Life is to good right now. Where are the trials? What is coming my way that I can not see? Lord, give me strength. I am so glad I have Him... so glad I have Him
3 comments:
Amen! I think you are a wonderful mom, Amy. Thanks for your example. I can't imagine going through any of those trials either. Have you read "My Sister's Keeper?" Sad story. The book has a completely different ending than the movie. I saw the movie, cried, and said I never wanted to see it again. :) It's too sad.
It's so good to hear from you again. You are doing a good job and I am glad you are feeling HAPPY right now.
I have the same worries for my kids. I think all of us do. We just have to remember that our kids have STRONG spirits for a reason. And the Lord knows just what they (and we) will go through.
I think it is interesting how differently you and I view trials and life sometimes. Love you, glad that life is so great for you!
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